And I’ll be here by the ocean, just waiting for proof that there’s
sunsets and silhouette dreams. All my sand castles fall like the
ashes of cigarettes… and every wave drags me to sea. <3
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Catching on to the trend? =)
Posted 2 hours ago on December 3 2009
Posted: 7 hours ago on December 3 2009
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I’m a little scared to hold you close, ‘cause I just might never ever let
you go. Caught up in your smile — I’m happy as a child. But I’m still drowning,
drowning in your love. Bring me flowers, and talk for hours. And oh, I like you…
And oh, I like how you make me feel.
“Bring Me Flowers” - Hope
Posted 1 day ago on December 2 2009
Posted: 1 day ago on December 2 2009
Posted: 1 day ago on December 2 2009
10 things I'll tell my children when they're old enough to understand.
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1. You will come across music that not many people are into. Like what you like. Take the time to understand what you hear. Music makes the world go round. Listen to everything in the song. The beat, the sound, the voice, the lyrics, the meaning. Take it all in. Lyrics will make you cry sometimes, but that just means that you can relate. And being able to know that there is someone out there that knows exactly how you’re feeling, is one of the most amazing feelings in the world.
2. Stay true to yourself. Once you know who you are, don’t change. Don’t let the bitterness of your peers bring you down. Enjoy the beauty of the world, look past all the flaws. Remember to breathe.
3. Don’t be afraid to fall in love. Forget the judgements, love is love. Take the risk of the fall. Let yourself be happy. Live for the moment. Forget about the future. Forget about the past. Cherish what you have.
4. At one point, your heart will feel broken. Your mind will be consumed with pessimistic thoughts, and there will be no other time in your life that you will be thinking as much as you will when something bad happens in your life. Try not to let it get the best of you. Live for what you have. Remember what you have. As much as you’re going to want to think that you have nothing, make sure you turn around.
5. Be kind. Be blunt. Be rude. Be sarcastic. Be lovely. Be original. Be whoever you want to be, but be friends with everyone. Enemies will come and go, but don’t hold grudges. You will like and dislike, but still find the decency to be civilized.
6. You’ll grow, and you’ll want to try new things. Don’t be afraid to, but always listen to your gut instinct. It does not matter what you do or how you do it, but it does matter if you have a good heart. Love everything at one point or another. If you can’t explain how you feel, write it down. Keep it for a time you’ll need it.
7. You will dwell on things that have happened in the past, but remember that sometimes it’s okay to let go. You will at some point have to let go of someone, and even when it feels like they’re gone, you will still have their memory. That is what matters.
8. Make love. Nothing more, nothing less.
9. Don’t follow a trend. Start one.
10. Lay in bed and listen to the rain. Go for a walk when it’s the perfect day. Spend time with people that are worth spending time with. Laugh at moments that aren’t worth laughing at. Smile when it’s the right moment. Kiss someone you know you’re in love with. Dream. Rebel.
Posted 2 days ago on December 1 2009
Posted: 2 days ago on December 1 2009
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I can’t help but sing this every month, seriously. =) But honestly, I can’t believe this
is the last “first of the month” of the year 2009! Craaazy… 2010, where you attt?!
Posted 3 days ago on November 30 2009
“ I ask myself why — and in that same breath, as I watch you, I get my answer. It’s everything about you: It’s that teasing smile, that warm scent. It’s the curve of your arms, the tousle of your hair, the ring of your voice. It’s just everything about you. But more than that, its everything about me. It’s everything about the way you make me laugh, cry, smile and hurt. It’s everything about the way you make me feel… And that’s everything that I cannot, and would not, want to let go off.
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Posted: 3 days ago on November 30 2009
Posted 5 days ago on November 28 2009
Happy birthday to me... [RECAP]
I’m a week late, so it’s about time for this much needed recap for my crazy golden 22nd birthday weekend. First off, if you know me well, you would know birthdays are usually one of the worst days of the year for me. It’s odd, because it’s supposed to be a day all about you, but I swear — something, if not everything, tends to go completely wrong. To be honest, I end up crying every year on my birthday… And definitely not tears of joy. The last legit one I had, where I didn’t have to turn on the waterworks was when I turned 16. Wow, right? I have a story with each a every birthday… And I usually dread having to deal with the stress and heartache I usually come across. You’d think my 21st birthday in 2008 would have been completely amazing. I mean, yeah, I had a good time… But nothing worked out the way it was supposed to, and honestly I think that might have been the worst one I’ve had overall. It was just full of drama and nonsense; I looked amazing, but my smiles that year were the furthest thing from genuine. Now, I’m not sure if it was my “golden” year of turning 22 on the 22nd, but I cannot begin to describe how perfectly this year’s panned out. It was most definitely the best way to spend my last days of being 21. Maybe it’s because 22 is my lucky number; Maybe it’s because this time around my friends were finally 21 (I was one of the first)… But I wouldn’t change a single thing even if I could. As a quick overview, on Friday, November 20th, a group of good friends and I went to Cherry Nightclub — where I got table and bottle service there… Three tables and four bottles to be exact. It was real nice, with a hefty seating area for all of us! I was really happy with how all that worked out nicely. Before I say anything, I’d like to thank everyone who was nice enough to pitch in for that pricy ass bill… You guys are the best!
I was really scared I was going to be so obnoxiously exhausted that night. I got only three hours of sleep the night before, had to work an early morning shift (I almost had to cancel my plans for that night because I was closing and nobody could cover for me, but luckily I was able to switch shifts with one of my sweet coworkers!), went last minute dress shopping right after, then had to drive all the way home and had to get ready almost immediately. The morning shift flew by, I found my birthday ‘fit at Marciano and even bought accessories that went well with my expensive ass six-inch Michael Kor heels… And I was good to go! Thanks to my friend Tim who helped me make the reservation and get on the guestlist, everything went super smooth. I really tried to keep my composure and stay cute… But really, I have no idea how I got so drunk beyond belief. Maybe it was the Belvedere shots, maybe it was the mixed drinks, maybe it was the numerous Patron shots my guy friends kept buying me, maybe it was the comp’d bottle of champagne… Maybe it was mixing my alcohol? But wow. Long story short, I ended up throwing up in two bathrooms, two trashcans, and a few plastic bags. And to make it momumental and completely epic? I WAS WHEEL CHAIRED OUT OF THE CLUB TO THE CAR. Ha! Get on my level, lol. Luckily, I have some amazing friends who took care of me. I’ve never been able to not remember half of my night completely… But I don’t remember throwing up, I don’t remember the wheel chair, I don’t remember my girls taking care of me, I don’t remember going back to Jeff’s house, I don’t remember him and Roxy taking care of me by changing me and putting me to bed. I was extremely confused when I woke up in different clothes in a place I don’t remember sleeping in! But let me tell you — the hangover was atrocious! I woke up, threw up, Roxy & Jeff fed me, threw up again, attempted to eat once more, they drove me home, and I threw up again… Mmm, lots of throwing up! Haha, I had no idea how I was going to make it threw day two of my birthday celebration.
That night of Saturday, the 21st, I had a house party at my friend Ryan Mirabueno’s house… Which was filled with alcohol, good music, beer pong, hookah, etc. I could not drink; My throat was still burning and I was still slightly hungover. I made the exception of taking a few shots, as friends counted down and shouted, “Happy birthday!” at the stroke of midnight… Which felt horrible. I refused to drink any Patron; I stuck to Grey Goose that night! The party was quite a success, although many people were still hungover (Just as I was!) and weren’t able to make it, but I can’t imagine if there were more people there, because it was already pretty packed. Quite a few people throwing up and passing out randomly. It was a great success! Thank you to absolutely everyone who came out and celebrated my real birthday with me. =) The next following days, I had a get-together with my coworkers who threw a little party for me on the day of my birthday… I also had a day where I spent with my family, going out to a nice dinner and all. It was nearly a week long celebration! I really can’t get over how successful this golden year birthday was. Like, I’m literally in shock that everything went as well as it did… Since I’m so used to everything always going so wrong. I know it hurt to be so drunk and hungover, but I honestly have no regrets. As my friends said, as much talk as we do about getting wheel chaired out — I was the first to finally do it! =D The pictures are hilarious and I don’t even feel bad. I’m just relieved I kept it classy by no exposed nipple slips or crotch shots! lol, I’m thankful to have such amazing friends to celebrate with… I couldn’t ask for more. Well, birthday sex would have been nice. HAHAHA, jk. Not really, lol. And as if this post wasn’t long already, I absolutely haaave to do a little shoutout section to specificallly thank certain people for making this day what it was. Just bare with me if you actually made it this far into reading this insanely long post. =)
To start… ROXANNE ENCARNACION. Thank you so much for pretty much taking every picture that was captured on my camera that night! If you hadn’t babysat my camera for me, I’m almost positive I wouldn’t have a single photo to show for it, other than the ones on other people’s, because I probably would have lost it. Also, thank you for being part of my take-care-of-Nikki entourage and helping in my throwing up along with JENALYNN MATA & JANNY LAC. I love you girls for all the back rubbing, hair holding, bag assisting! The pictures are freaking hilarious, and I’m glad you guys enjoyed seeing me as drunk as I was! I’m very fortunate to have had all three of you there. And of course, JILLIAN CANDALLA, I would not have gotten as drunk as I was if it weren’t for you and your, “Finish that drink! It’s your birthday! Chug chug chug!” Haha, I guess that’s what I get for holding full drinks next to you! And afterall, it was your request to security to give me the drunken VIP treatment to get wheel chaired out. Love you, downass! JEFFREY CARLOS & JR AQUINO, thank you for making sure I was safe and driving me back to Jeff’s house. And also, thanks Jeff for holding my purse and phone the whole night, and also making sure the money issue was taken care of with the bill at Cherry! Speaking of, ERWIN ESPINUEVA, thank you for throwing down more money than you should have! From what I heard, we were hella short on money if it weren’t for you! Thanks soOo much. And to TIMOTHY CHOI, for helping me get the good deal with the bottle service and taking care of the table reservation and guestlist at Cherry! If it weren’t for you, we wouldn’t have even ended up there. Thank you for the last shot of Patron I took in before throwing up too! Haha. Also, thank you to JEFFREY DAWANA and RUFIO REBOTON for the Patron birthday shots as well. Also, Rufio, thank you for DJing at my house party the following day. The music was too crackin’! Loved it. Also, thank you for taking the wheelchair madness limelight off of me by getting completely wasted at that party and throwing up for the first time in all the years I’ve known you! Haha, Of course, also big thanks to RYAN MIRABUENO who allowed me to throw that big ass party at his house, despite not knowing any of the people who came through. My midnight wouldn’t have been as wonderful if it weren’t for your dopetastic home! I still can’t believe the cops didn’t break it up. lol
And overall, just thank you thank you thank you to ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE who came through on one or more of the days I celebrated my birthday… Family, friends, coworkers — my day wouldn’t have been what it was without you. From the bottom of my heart, I love you all. Thank you! <3
